Recently, it seemed like many of my past temptations kept creeping back into my life. I really believed I was at a place where the struggle to choose right from wrong was over. What I also found interesting is that the same day I was being tempted, others in my circle were being tempted too. This coincidence had me wondering
Can we truly overcome our temptations?
Lately, I have been having a hard time with making mistakes. It seems that I get all bent out of shape which usually looks like me crying hysterically about the problem and my daughter looking at me in awe of how fast my mood changed. I know that sounds funny and very over dramatic but unfortunately, it has become my reality. Somewhere along the line of my life, I have created a fear of failure. And this has grown into even fearing the simplest mistakes that I make or even someone in my family makes.
Recently, my daughter has reminded me of this. It is like she can tell when I am overwhelmed with all that is going on in my life and I am trying hard to figure out how to fix the problem(s). I am truly grateful for her sweet and precious reminders that we serve a God, who can make what seems impossible to us possible.
Driving down the road, I did not notice it at first but soon I began to feel the stares and see people mouthing the words, "Look at that? or Wow, What happened?" They were all staring at what was the aftermath of a car accident (or scar as I like to call it) on my truck. The damage is openly noticeable to the point where I began to count how many people took notice or even said something.
I bring up this situation because it reminded me of the internal scars that many of us carry but we allow these to fester on without healing or resolve. Psalm 147:3 KJV says God can "...healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds."
So why do we run from Him?
Why do we feel our burden is ours to bear alone?
Yes, we are at war! But the type of war I speak of comes in the form of some of the trials, tribulations, and even distractions we face in our lives. You may even wonder
Who or What are we fighting?
The Bible describes just who and what we are at war against in Ephesians 6:12 KJV "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places."
So how do we prepare for a spiritual war?
In prayer and in passing thoughts, I have desired to rekindle a relationship with the Lord like I had when I was younger. This stemmed from having a stronger connection which was born through prayer, study and the power felt from the Holy Spirit. Now all those things seem to be lacking or not as predominant in my life as I would like them to be.