Recently after coming back from vacation, my daughter pointed out something about me that caused me to sit down at the feet of God. She said, "Mom, I notice when you get around other people you act differently." My initial thought was to defend myself, but instead, I began to examine my behavior and interactions over the past year. I did not realize that I was still wrapped up in people bondage to the point where I have been afraid just to be myself. See this started to happen due to me trying so hard to be different than my past that I began to seek out what others were doing in their lives. If I saw someone who seemed financially or spiritually well off, then I wanted to emulate them. So instead of progressing the way God wanted me to grow in my journey, I ended up birthing confusion within myself.
I began to pay attention to the ways the Holy Spirit would communicate to me around the time of middle school; I believe it was. Sometimes it would be through dreams or visions and other times it would be in the repetition of an event or conversation, basically what many call déjà vu. Most of the repetitive situations would take place in threes, meaning I would experience the same type of conversation with three different people or have a similar event happen three separate times.